Calls My Name

You don't know what it's like when I start to heat up When I hear him, I get worried When the mad man calls my name When I hear him, I get worried When the mad man calls my name There's a difference between surviving with bipolar And thriving with bipolar I kicked the pills when I started to fall in I hear the voices, yeah they be calling Still I ignore them But I ignore them Still I ignore them but they keep getting in I am not the deep end This cannot simply be thought of as a human defect When I hear him, I get worried When the mad man calls my name When I hear him, I get worried When the mad man calls my name I Just left the surgeon Proceeded to pop Motrin To better help with the motion See me, I need to move A cancer diagnosis to knock me off my groove And bipolar II Disorder puts a damper on my mood They carved the foot Took Lymph nodes from the crotch Scraping for skin grafts, heel in a box It's time for radiation therapy See, I can barely see A way out Wonder how this is gon' play out I'm afraid 'bout Remission being a myth for me Silver lining I see things differently Tomorrow truly ain't promised So now I live fearless, conscious and honest Fuck all that insecurity shit Silence them self doubting voices Ain't got time for that anymore None of us do (None of us do) None of us do So by now, they know me well in the oncological unit Got an urge to be unstoppable human And I'll prove it Zooming on this chaos ball Called Earth Baby, death comes for us all Saw my future during an LSD trip I'ma live forever, sincerely I mean it Prayers up and out For me and mine and for you and yours