Pretty Risqué Undertones I'LL Never Alleviate

Making this music but I'm not a prodigy Demons they pop up at night to say hi to me Not a role model I run away constantly Honestly don't know why y'all niggas rock wit me Self esteem glass, fragile as fuck Douse me in gas fire me up One day I'm godly, next day I suck Think of me fondly but I'm corrupt Wonder through life I don't know what I'm doin' Quarantine speeding up time it be zoomin' Family fractured it always been ruined So I just focus on me and keep moving My circle small could fit in my fist Me and my bae few friends that's it Music been booming and growing legit But when I'm low, I still wanna quit She told me baby don't leave I told her I won't but inside I'm lonely Lies all in throat stabbing me so I bleed Don't worry when I'm gone I'll leave my royalties I'm in love wit, everything bad so sad I'm in love wit, everything I know I'll never have I'm in love wit, reminiscing bout the bitter past I'm in love wit, watching everything around me crash I'm in love wit I fell in love with a dream Whenever you in it things turning obscene I want more fans but I hate the attention I love but I hate you you're my contradiction I'm losing track of my mission Been dealing with headaches extreme double vision My vices and life had a head on collision Can't make a decision Purgatory I just float in suspension Senpai living in dream state Tell me who relates Every mask that I wear fake Can't catch a break I don't wanna see hell's gates But if I do I will understand it's fate Always in love with a time of the year that I shouldn't be Can't escape dreams that I have so vividly Wish I could rewrite change it easily But honestly if I did be a bad thing All my bad habits Made all the malice collect in my chalice Thoughts always phallic Just wanna give you the world, diamonds, pearls and a palace Might be psychotic my feelings robotic I'm programmed for caring too much I can't stop it Everything toxic I'm in love wit, everything bad so sad I'm in love wit, everything I know I'll never have I'm in love wit, reminiscing bout the bitter past I'm in love wit, watching everything around me crash I'm in love wit Yeah Pretty risqué undertones I'll never alleviate My overly rancid sexualized understanding someday yeah