Still // Oregon

I haven't seen her since I still read her emails though Erry day Erry day Erry damn day Erry day I still write you letters everyday I still can imagine what you'd say I still haven't made your favorite dinner Since I've been eating alone I still listen to our old playlists I still remember all of our date trips I still keep a folder of our pictures On my camera roll And though I haven't seen you in months I still haven't fallen out of love I need to move on I'm never gonna get Cece back I know it's my fault that I lost her You lost her twice You had her, then you got her, then you blew it Then you got her Who are you clarifying this for I still haven't finished our shows And I'm still pretty sure that I won't I still haven't read the rest of my Bachman book And I won't even try I still have the things you left behind Like sweaters, hats, and notes you wrote that night I still keep your favorite chips in my kitchen As if you'll still come by And even though we don't keep in touch I still haven't fallen out of love And I don't think I ever will Is it possible to feel this way forever I'm scared of standing still And ignoring what is real We don't belong together I still am with you in my dreams And I still don't know what that means I still have never felt as seen As when your eyes and ears were on me Your love was so beyond me Your love was so beyond me And though I haven't seen you in months And even though we don't keep in touch And even if the pain is too much I still haven't fallen out of love If you still love me We're both out our twenties And you think we could be more again Would you meet me in Oregon Where we went on my birthday At the mansion on a hill I know it's been so long Do you remember still Hey I'm sorry that this didn't work out I'm sorry that we sucked