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I always get stuck counting the minutes I drown when I'm swimming Is any of it real? Cause Inside my eyelids I'm spinning Thank god I'm still in it But I don't know how Cause the view from the back of my closet Is something I'm tired of watching But nobody's here And that's half the problem I'm just Alone with my fears When life's amazing I tend to forget All of the darkness I hold in my head It's only When I get a little bit lonely I feel like I don't even know me Taught my skin how to grow thicker Never a quitter But I almost broke Pills from a doctor for dinner I mixed it with liquor And I nearly choked Cause the view as I started at the carpet Was something I've never forgotten With nobody there Am my my own problem? Wasting away with my fears When life's amazing I tend to forget All of the darkness I hold in my head When I get a little bit lonely I feel like I don't even know me Dying to live But live half alive How'd I get here? How'd I get here? Oh I'm holding my breath In hope I survive How'd I get here? How'd I get here? Now I'm stuck counting the minutes I drown when I'm swimming Is any of it real? When life's amazing I tend to forget All of the darkness I hold in my head It's only When I get a little bit lonely I feel like I don't even know me