Bitter

I wish that I could be numb I wish that this would be easier (easier) I think I'm coming undone How long do I have to feel this hurt? (feel this hurt) Feels like I'm fading away Damaged bones break under the weight How long 'til it's too late? Maybe I'll be better off this way I'm losing all control now I sold my soul for a cigarette I thought that I would care by now But somehow letting go won't feel so bad Searching for a brighter view But it's clear that I'm so lost Will it be the fall that kills me Or the sudden stop? Was it ever enough? (I'm uneasy in my current state) (It's eating me alive from the inside) The pressure weighs me down Will I float or drown? Suspense is killing me I'm losing all control now I sold my soul for a cigarette I thought that I would care by now But somehow letting go won't feel so bad They say the guilty never truly rest Is that why I lie awake in bed? The bitter memories in my head Are all that I have left I'm losing all control now I sold my soul for a cigarette I thought that I would care by now But somehow letting go won't feel so bad They say the guilty never truly rest Is that why I lie awake in bed? (awake in bed) The bitter memories in my head Are all that I have left