I Hate Myself

How can I still stay when I hate myself? How can I still stay when I hate myself? I still break With time I will take myself Due to pain I felt Still the rain pours down And it's cold in hell still Will we melt? How can I still stay when I hate myself? I've grown to hate what time is I've grown to love the silence I hate the bags on my eyelids I love to mask all the violence Another night on this planet's Another night I might vanish Everytime I go manic I start to freak out and panic Now I don't know where to go or what to do Still in our throws you would make me feel comfortable Losing my hope, lose control and I'm losing you Loosen the rope at my throat like you used to do Or tighten it at least Our commitment means everything to me Bottle everything inside Lay to waste every bit of time Can't escape every simple lie I tell Can't replace all the time I killed Maybe it's time that I kill myself Maybe it's time that I kill my- Myself I don't wanna be here any longer I hate who I am How can I still stay when I hate myself? I still break With time I will take myself