I Feel Nothing

I'm thinkin' goriest shit Gimme a pill or something To diminish it So that I can feel nothing And I'm crushed inside My idea of success I'm in a living hell Because I feel nothing Make my day yeah make my day Anything to make this pain go away Been wrapped up inside things I won't say I'm out in the rain and I'm not okay I can feel your presence shaking my core Inside my head there's a great war Sleeping pills I need to take more Or I'm back to the way I was before Ghosts dancing in my room I can see them twisting through the gloom Eternally haunted by my thoughts Struggling to connect the dots Everyone is out to get you No one cares what you've been through They're ignoring you it's nothing new You're fake and everyone can see through It's a dangerous type of night Cuz everyone I love is out of sight Sitting in my room all alone Brightest light in there is my phone I begin to feel trapped when I'm overthinking Nowhere to run and take my mind off of things I know that others have got it worse But I wanna try put my feelings into verse Goriest shit Gimme a pill or something To diminish it So that I can feel nothing And I'm crushed inside My idea of life I'm in a living hell Because I feel nothing Then my texts stop sending I don't wanna be depending on myself It's all ending This shit ain't mending It all seems a blur Wouldn't even occur These old events will haunt me tonight Got my love and my friends Here for me all the time But I don't think it's gonna fill this void Butterflies in my stomach It aches I don't wanna do this Can't sleep Withering away I come home from these nights out With even more to cry about So I engross myself into films and games To distract from how I've made myself feel I'm inside a timetable of what I do each day And then Over exhaustion creeps up on me So I try sleep to numb the pain It's a dangerous type of night Cuz everyone I love is out of sight Sitting in my room all alone Brightest light in there is my phone I begin to feel trapped when I'm overthinking Nowhere to run and take my mind off of things I know that others have got it worse But I wanna try put my feelings into verse