Hollister Henleys

I have a tendency to treat everyone like they're older than me I swear, I was sweating at senior prom last week I watch strangers look at me and pinpoint my insecurities, I Hold a sign that screams I've already peaked And I'm talking to people who have no real issue with me As if I gotta bend over backwards just to be perceived positively Does anyone on earth feel like a human? I'm stuck in the past while my future is looming I just need to know how much further to go Till I start to feel more okay with the death of my youth I muster a joke at a bonfire in South Michigan (South Michigan) Get talked over by dicks in their Hollister Henleys Way back in grade 10 (Way back in grade 10!) I just feel like I'm locked out the bathroom again At my 12th birthday party while kids read my diary inside Oh, I learned a lesson that week I'll be there for you, but like hell will I trust you with me And I'm talking to people I pay to fix issues in me I keep running in circles, my brain is the lock and the key But it won't set me free Does anyone on earth feel like a human? I'm stuck in the past while my future is looming I just need to know how much further to go Till I start to feel more okay with the death of my youth And I'm trapped in nostalgia, I only spend money On things that remind me of being kid I'm chugging black coffee in work parking lots Fifteen minutes after I was due for my shift I'm bracing myself for the whiplash that's coming When I finally grow up and leave undergrad I'm scared that the good stuff is over and What's next is bad Does anybody else feel like a robot? I'm stealthing through life till the day I get caught and I've Fully succumbed, my impulses numbed I've withdrawn all spontaneity, I'm done Does anyone on earth feel like a human? I'm stuck in the past and my future is looming I just need to know how much further to go Till I start to feel more okay with the death of my