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"I fucking hate myself" "I'm-" "I'm so fucking lonely" "You don't know what is like to be worthless" "When nothing you do matters" "I feel that way everyday in my life" "Everyday I'm dead" I'm trapped inside a Coffin Aisa lagra it's the end Searching for a remedy I'm lookin' for my meds I'm jus' thanking that I'm able to survive the nights Mai pop karu pills Which relax my mind I don't know what the fuck is going inside my head Raato ko lagta ki l'm layin' on my death bed This shit is going to be I guess so fucking sad I think I'm gonna die by next Jan Chain se toh mai raato ko soo bhi ni pata Nasho ke bina dard mujhse saha he ni jaata Sapno me koi shakash mujhe aake darta Reh skte ho mere bina Chalo reh ke dikhana I don't want to die I just don't want to live 'Cause the more I try the less I get back I don't wanna die I just don't want to live 'Cause in my 20 years I have never felt a thing Batata nahi kisiko ki lera hu mai therapies Batadiya toh shayad hasne lage ge yeh mujh par he Therapist ne kaha ki you have to face reality Reality is fucked up and that shit kinda scares me Bataya mene usko about my suicide attempt Jo letters the likhe I showed her that Mene kaha I got dreams I don't wanna die But I don't wanna live at the same fucking time Jab se woh gye I don't feel righteous Kill me already or hand me a rifle Thoughts are dark cuz ho chuki hai night ab To save myself I lighted a joint up I don't want to die I just don't want to live 'Cause the more I try the less I get back I don't wanna die I just don't want to live 'Cause in my 20 years I have never felt a thing Aane wala din jab na rahunga yaha Tab sun'na mere gaane aur sab feel krna Na rona meri kabar pe na hona hairaan Tumko di thi awazein tab toh kisi ne bhi na suna So maybe this is gonna be my final goodbye Jaanta yeh sun'ne ke badh bhi koi rokne na aye Been goin' through this shit now for a while Yeh mere thoughts hai or tumko lagri hai lines Mai khud he push kar raha logo ko door They all thinking that I'm egoistic and I'm rude I don't know what to say you got it all wrong But fuck it let me cut my wrist and finish this song I don't want to die I just don't want to live 'Cause the more I try the less I get back I don't wanna die I just don't want to live 'Cause in my 20 years I have never felt a thing