Beatitudes (Family Version)

Don't know what to say Don't know how to pray I differed my hope All I do is cope I don't got the words Some up all the hurt I just wanna cry Wanna be alright Can't be weak Can't break free On my knees Most days My face on the floor Heart can't break anymore From the pain of the divorce Oh my God, what's this for? All those treasures you stored Hope and a purpose for me But it feels like you left Alone in the fight while you hide Nail in the coffin at the funeral for Uncle's suicide Oh my God, are you scared Of these thoughts that I share? I feel so under prepared For the hell that's been staring me down I'm a clown walking through life With my head down I was so light On cloud nine Felt so high Now I am just paralyzed Used to write songs that people played at their weddings Now I write songs that are lame and depressing What is this for? Is it a test, cause I fail more and more I suck, fresh out of lucks Where are you my Lord I'm an idiot Read the scripture Another medium See it different Blessed are the meak And those who thirst Blessed are the pour And the hearts that hurt Blessed are the ones in bed Can't get out their head On their knees upset Cause they can't catch a break Don't know how to pray Down at rock bottom living in a pigsty Almost every night Might wanna die Nothing left to cry Just trying to survive That was me terrified I see now life had to prove Like roses are red And violets blue I don't know what I would do without you