Everything that I thought you meant
Broken promises and broken dreams I lament
Shrouding days with a cloud of my own discontent
For the ignorance I perpetuate in this mess
Shifting blame from exterior forces to me
My comprehension of the hurt is too intangible to grieve
Instead I find myself replaying memories in my head
I can't withstand the thought of knowing you were lonely in them
Could it be too late
But that's exactly what you wanted to say
And that's exactly how you fostered this change in me
No plans I endeavoured to mend my ways
Instead I watched my love fade slowly into emptiness
False reckoning but you always came back
Signifying that I could keep your heart in a jar
I took too much and I finally pushed too far
We can't subjugate our fears
Looking to you for help
As I live through this internal hell
An avoidance of reflection
It's affecting my amygdala's influence of my jaded self perception
Nothing hits me
I'm stoic yet lonely
My therapist divulges her critique on just what brought me here
But it's all the same in one ear and out the other
My body shudders as you don't stutter for once
Our love was not enough
It was always you
That brought the best of me to the surface
But the rest remained submerged
Dragging the both of us down
I tried so hard to make this right
Cut my ties with the past
And shed the weight that kept you stuck in my tide
If this is what it feels like to lose your love
Then I know I've never felt so alive
I have never felt so alive
Spill it out emote in the sense that if we cut ties now
I know we still stand a chance to be better versions of ourselves
We did this for our health
