ok getting older

I stopped drinking, don't smoke weed I wanna know me sober My friends think I'm boring now Guess I'm getting older I stopped talking to my dad Weight lifted from my shoulder Better off not seeing him But maybe when I'm older Loved my grandma so damn much Died when I was 12 If she knew that I kiss girls Would she love me still? Mmm Saw my sister graduate Proud of her, I told her Saw her through her first heartbreak Guess she's getting older My friend's mother died last week Didn't get to know her She was only 55 That's not even old My girlfriend says I'm too closed off I'm trying not to be I don't want to reach the end, not be the best of me Mmm If I could find the younger me I'd hug her and I'd hold her Say, "You have everything you need" I'm okay getting older