I couldn't seem to let it go
And I could barely even see what's in front of me
The rest is history
The dumbest thing i've ever done
I never had a guarantee
My bloods pumping at a million degrees
This years is melancholic
With tension revolving
The sound used to calm all my past anxiety's
Find a way to let it go
Instead of feeling almost all the extremes
I'll be stuck in between
By design
I suffocate the ones I love
So tight they barely even breathe
Can you see what's beneath?
Can you see my history
Allergic to the slightest touch
Admitting all I ever dream
Is that one day as promised i'll have self esteem
Even if i'm shaking don't wake me
I'm done conversating
Survive this night without me
The same diagnosis that nobody noticed
I try but time just multiplies
Life is not linear
Everything is mysterious
I took on the monster that's been living in my head
Now I see that life is not a dream
More like a nightmare
Are you entertained?
It's not fair
Even if i'm shaking don't wake me
I'm done conversating
Survive this night without me
The same diagnosis that nobody noticed
I try but time just multiplies
Life is not linear
Everything is mysterious
I took on the monster that's been living in my head
Now I see that life is not a dream
More like a nightmare
Are you entertained?
It's not fair
It's not fair
So blindfold your mind
I'll always hate your design
I'll never come back
