Everything at Once

I don't want to talk right now I just want to sleep Needing to be strong right now Is making me feel weak So can we wait until the morning Can we pause until the feeling stops Yeah I'm just running from my problems Like a kid who's running from the cops It's not you, it's dishes in the sink It's trying not to think It's no one listening It's not you, it's hiding in the hall With laundry on the floor It's the timing of it all It's not you, it's everything at once It's not you, it's everything I'm not I don't want to talk right now I can't fall asleep I'm scared if I call you out You'll tell me to leave So can we wait until the morning Can we pause and then we'll pick it up I know you're exhausted baby everything is - I know we should work this out I'll cry if I speak It's not you, it's the city that I'm from It's dad yelling at mom It's the car waiting out front It's not you, it's the sadness on my sheets It's grinding down my teeth It's turning twenty-three It's not you, it's everything at once It's not you, it's everything I'm not It's random bruises, feeling useless, growing up on my computer Outside voices, stupid choices, all the things I once enjoyed It's random bruises, feeling useless, growing up on my computer Outside voices, stupid choices, all the things that we avoid It's not you, it's everything at once It's not you, it's everything I'm not