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I lost myself again Downward, my head is spinning Messed up and medicated This doesn't feel much like living Laundry's still on the bed I'm anxious, but that's a given Pray for the hell of it Just hope that there's somebody listening Endless untangling Try to untie the string Wrapping around all my fingers Eyes get blurry I don't see an end And I've been hiding from myself again And it hurts me when I pretend that I'm anything but human Greet my unwelcome guest I want him to leave, but the table is set And my cold hands and shallow breath Convince me I'll never get better Endless untangling Try to untie the string Wrapping around all my fingers Eyes get blurry I don't see an end And I've been hiding from myself again And it hurts me when I pretend that I'm anything but human Tryna fight it, but it's pulling me back Turns out, you can't run away from the past Oh, it hurts me when I pretend that I'm anything but human Cobwebs inside my head I'm getting caught in it Chaos inside my chest I lost myself again Eyes get blurry I don't see an end And I've been fighting with myself again And it hurts me when I pretend that I'm anything but human