Sad/Drunk (Demo)

Don't know what I wanna do with all my time I guess that emptiness is just a part of my design I hope my shitty life at least looks good online I guess that play pretend is just a way of getting by And I hope that I'm getting better Faster than I'm getting older I don't wanna die But I just keep on getting colder Can't really remember The last time that I was sober I look in the mirror and think to myself Are you sad Because you're drunk? Are you drunk Because you're sad? I can't tell if I've gone mad My mind is overheating Am I miserably high Or on the edge of paradise? I must have really lost my mind this time If they ask me how I'm doing I'll just lie Don't wanna kill the vibe And say I'm hurting all the time I hope my shitty life at least looks good online Confusing how the sadness Gets me feeling kinda high And I hope That I'm getting better Faster than I'm getting older I don't wanna die But I just keep on getting colder Can't really remember The last time that I was sober I look in the mirror and think to myself Are you sad because you're drunk? Are you drunk because you're sad? I can't tell if I've gone mad My mind is overheating Am I miserably high Or on the edge of paradise? I must have really lost my mind this time This time This time This time