Life is Hopeless

Why is life better when I go to sleep Why does it feel like cancer in my head Yo, I wake up and it feels like i'm dead I feel like I'm drowning in Challenger Deep Life is hopeless I can't find happiness anymore When I think I'm at my peak, I fall back down to the floor I look at myself and I see failure and weakness Look at the pain in my face, man I'm so worthless I can't go through the day without breaking down I try to crack a smile, but my mood just beats me down I be breathing heavily and I have these palpitations I can barely think straight and I lose my concentration I'm losing a battle against myself I go to bed wishing for a permanent asleep But before I go to sleep, I just start to weep Cause there's no need to go to heaven, man I'm already in hell Life is hopeless What did I ever do to deserve this Smile on my face while I'm mentally suffering People try to be comforting, but no chance of recovering If you wanna talk, then you can always come and talk to me Who's actually gonna listen It's not gonna make a difference A whole lifetime of pain has been accumulating Building up, building up It's building up that tension Too many inconveniences in life, it's so overwhelming It's hard to talk about it cause people say I'm just looking for attention I started turning to alcohol to numb the pain Don't care if ethanol's bad for me It'll mellow my brain I'm considering cutting myself Yeah you can call me crazy It's gotten to the point where I don't think about my safety Life is hopeless and I know that nobody cares I'm so broken that there's no way I can be repaired I have these dark thoughts and, no lie, I'm very scared Got so many visions of my death, but I think I'm prepared I can't stand feeling all this pain within me I can't stand it What did I ever do to deserve this Come on I can't do this I don't wanna live like this I have to lie and say that I'm fine I wanna get better, man. I'm tryin' But there's no reason in living I wanna put and end to my suffering Everyday I just brake down and cry Come on! Just kill me, I JUST WANNA DIE THIS IS IT LET'S MAKE IT A REALITY RIGHT NOW Y'ALL GOT TEN SECONDS Give me one reason why I shouldn't end it all right now One reason why I shouldn't dig my throat out One reason why I shouldn't cut my vocal chords so I can't scream anymore My presence is not even important anyways There will be no difference if I live or die Y'all are running out of time Give me one reason GIVE ME ONE REASON GIVE ME ONE REASON AAAH Just when I was about to end it all My cry for help was heard I can't believe I was about to do this to myself I can't believe my own mind was gonna get the best of me I was so close to taking the easy way out But the people around me came to my help before it was too late They knew something wasn't right with me They went out their way to help me They showed me that people do care That there's way more to live for And they showed me that i'm not alone in this However, I'm still hurting inside I still feel emptiness within me I still wanna isolate myself most of the time I don't know why my mind is still in that dark place But with all the help i'm getting, I just hope I get better soon