14 Today

14 today and you went dancing Music mixed with laughter And boys can be so insecure They made you drink a bit too much Everything's a blur of feel and touch Did he really like you How can you be sure enough 23 today and all your friends are getting married You say they're so scared of being alone So self righteously you march though teachers college Still so much in life you gotta get to know Seems like everybody's so content to move so slow And when you think you've got your life so well controlled It slips away And the years like raindrops falling from your life are Washed away You're so brilliant, you're so gifted, so sensitive, so strong As you hide behind your barricade of words But no one got close enough to you to have ever heard I met you at a party you were drunk and full of world advice And I was getting nervous You said you had a child who was a genius and you smiled As the living room transformed into your circus Someone whispered you were 39 today a face so you Eyes so old You collapsed into the corner Like somebody of raw nerves you near seduced me With your verbs As I reached out for you You said over and over Children come home from school Shout and laugh with all their life Shit em out fast before you think of the past Turn out all your lights Go to bed got to sleep don't think don't feel As the night time moans a prayer That maybe somewhere deep inside There's some meaning aching to be shared