i'll meet you by the shore

So here's the deal You're going to fall in love with someone Who's going to fall out of love with you And maybe you'll want answers Or maybe you won't You'll always have questions Dancing a kick line in the back of your head And maybe you'll want the pain to go away Or maybe you won't But it will bruise and heal over time Or burst like a clogged artery You'll run out of ways to bleed And find ways to style your hair That soften your angles And make you look like you might be Someone who's easier to love I'm not okay Don't know how I'll get through today I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore I kinda wanna change my name Pack a bag and send myself away So I can never be someone for you to just ignore Why don't you need me anymore? You'll try the reddest lipstick you can find and wear it like a warning sign Until you're about to leave the house And you decide that you look fucking stupid You can't pull this off You can't turn your hard edges Into some sort of fashion statement You'll wipe off the lipstick off the back of your hand And then you'll look like you've been kissed senseless But you haven't been kissed at all You'll start crying, collapse into bed, crawl back out Call your best friend in sadness, hang up on the second ring It's all so fucking hard to stop loving somebody But it's so fucking easy for them to stop loving you You are not a warrior, you are a windowpane Sharp edge but easy to break, or maybe not Maybe you're the brick, if you are, it's a brick too heavy A brick too heavy to throw or carry You'll fall in love with somebody who'll fell out of love with you It hurts like a fucking bitch, right? I don't know why, I thought I could make it sound poetic All I came up with were metaphors about breaking And bleeding and even more bleeding I'm not okay Don't know how I'll get through today I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore (By the shore) I kinda wanna change my name Pack a bag and send myself away So I can never be someone for you to just ignore Why don't you need me anymore? Why don't you need me anymore? I'm sick of crying on the floor I don't know what I was missing, thought you would listen It all just went away Guess I don't need you anymore Maybe I should leave or slam the door I don't know what you were missin', I won't fuckin' listen I'm over yesterday Tell me the things you haven't admitted to yourself Like you're lonely, depressed, and suicidal When it's 2.a.m and your mind starts to rattle Do you pick up the blade, or the bottle? They're the difference between breathing and feeling alive 2 a.m. is someone who will find all the dirt hiding underneath your nails And see every skeleton in your closet And they will still answer the phone every time We're all the same at 2 a.m. (Hi, maybe you could come visit me in the summer) (We can go to the beach or down to the river) I'm not okay Don't know how I'll get through today I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore (By the shore) I kinda wanna change my name Pack a bag and send myself away So I can never be someone for you to just ignore Why don't you need- (fuck) I'm not okay Don't know how I'll get through today I wish that you would come my way, I'd meet you by the shore (By the shore) I kinda wanna change my name Pack a bag and send myself away So I can never be someone for you to just ignore Why don't you need me anymore?