Found You

Yeah, I'd rather go through it than nothing without you At times it gets hard and its easy to doubt you But God knows if I would've had it my way I probably would never learn nothing about you Damn, I lucked up when I found you I spent a year to myself in the crib and shit Trying to channel the peace that I had as a kid again Sometimes you need time to yourself to find a new wealth inside of your skin again Is this real or I'm really pretending? Hate when opposites turn into synonyms Is this still the beginning or ending? Am I really winning, how much am I giving? I feel like I'm slipping, my light has been dimming My shawdy been tripping, I always go missing I try to make time but I'm constantly busy Constantly rushing, costing it all And the thoughts in my mind is enough for like ten of me Lost in this pile of trauma I felt like left in past, finally hitting me I need consistency dawg Is this shit meant for me, is it a fantasy? It's still in the plans to see But currently while in the present I go for what I want 'Cause that's what I owe myself The other day I played my old shit, heard the growth Guess what I told myself I'd rather go through it than nothing without you At times it gets hard and its easy to doubt you God knows if I would've had it my way, yeah, yeah I probably would never learn nothing about you Damn, I lucked up when I found you Rather go through it than nothing without you At times it gets hard and its easy to doubt you But God knows if I would've had it my way I probably would never learn nothing about you Damn, I lucked up when I found you Wanted to grow up when I was a kid and shit If I could go back I would probably be smacking the shit out him 'Cause this shit ain't it, the world so much harder to fit in, but not to go missing I'm a person of color could turn to a person of interest, I gotta move different And I'm being more conscious when scrolling I'm done with comparing my life to the next one Deal with my job, my boss, the cops, the laws, the cultural stigmas Take care of my pops, my mom, the loans, the bills, my friends, my sibilings Told my lil brother, "Lil nigga you better enjoy it while you still can" Don't really know if the kid understood when I said it, but he'll understand Dammit, this life is a trip from the moment you here 'til the moment you dip I was doubting myself but that's part of it Still out here standing, I learned from the moments I slipped Landed and noticed the shit I was taking for granted No matter how hard as it get, in the end, I admit that I'd rather go through it than nothing without you At times it gets hard and its easy to doubt you God knows if I would've had it my way, yeah, yeah I probably would never learn nothing about you Damn, I lucked up when I found you Rather go through it than nothing without you At times it gets hard and its easy to doubt you But God knows if I would've had it my way I probably would never learn nothing about you Damn, I lucked up when I found you, yeah