Trigger Finger (Rough Cut)

I've been dreaming of this day are you okay I've been shaking up been stirred this is absurd Staring at the clock tick tock it goes non stop I've been shaking up been rocked beyond what I brought I've been taking pills that'll help me think straight They will help me feel like I'm real like Im okay Chasing after thoughts that popped up with no props Make a tiny note it was time to just move on Fingers on the trigger but the triggers got a safety Say I'm something bigger this can quickly change Im crazy Ya im gold ya im crazy ya im gold Now i'm looking back at past that nearly shattered By thoughts that kept me rattled Like hey this shit is wild My brain don't match my bod My mind is starting to rot I thought I made it clear I'm done with all these thoughts I've been thinking about some things that'll end me They don't have a need to feed I am running Get the fuck away I'm happy it's a new day We don't need to stay my voice is finally my say Seeing the shit that women deal with is endless Men will talk you down say some real fucking dumb shit Guess I'll never know a life like those fairy tales No matter how high we fall we can all fail Finger was on the trigger but the triggers gone it's crazy Knew I was something bigger this can change it all It all it's hazy ya im gold ya Im gold