The Sound of Two Voices

I must be honest Under the surface It grinds like a blender The sound of two voices My heart seems to fail me It put me in a stranger's bed It hurt who I love the most I'll never trust it again That's why I don't want what I want 'Cause what I want, it just might kill me And I won't think of my needs 'Cause what I need, I know there's never enough for me Envy is endless I used to put mistakes up on a board Compare how mine sticks Next to the rest of the worlds' That got me nowhere but miles from changing Now I've got deep stains And bleach won't erase them That's why I don't want what I want 'Cause what I want, it just might kill me And I won't think of my needs 'Cause what I need, I know there's never enough for me Call me on everything 'Cause I can't see how it looks from your perspective Call me on everything 'Cause I can't help myself and I need your protection from me I lose every time I lose every time I lose every time You think you're inspiring Posting slogans on a photo of the sky You're letting sleeping dogs lie It's not so simple as Do what makes you happy If that's the same thing That will destroy me That's why I don't want what I want 'Cause what I want, it just might kill me And I won't think of my needs 'Cause what I need, I know there's never enough for me I must be honest (For me) Under the surface It grinds like a blender (I know there's never enough for me) The sound of two voices My heart seems to fail me (For me) It put me in a stranger's bed It hurt who I love the most (What I need, I know there's never enough for me) I'll never trust it again