Violence

At the end of the road I put my guard down Lifted my head to the heavens and didn't make a sound I prayed for peace and got silence Left alone in the dark, I chose violence Put me on the payroll The bank roll Give me something to alleviate The horror in my soul Help me medicate Backseat They found me Trying to find how many pills it takes Let me fall asleep Never fucking wake I've been Pushing it down, not a fucking sound If you find me on the floor Close the fucking door Bitch Now then Before you get loud, let me tell you how I learned to eradicate Evil on the Sabbath day I prayed for peace God never answered me I dream about How I escaped Just for a moment Senses collapsed My brain unfolded Feeling attacked Somehow emboldened Bringing me back Like I was chosen Siphoning my poisoned blood Dragged into the fucking mud I could have been a monster Feeling Leaves my fingertips Weightless Float through nothingness Fiending I'm not over this Hopeless I'll always think of it