EGO DEATH UNDER THE OHIO SUNSET

My fear of life has kept me from living My fear of death she whispers "Always unforgiving" Tied to this place Like it's the only solid ground that I know But the first step off the ledge Is the first step that I have to go I let my foot fall flat I let it bathe in the dark I've let this feeling warm me in it's comfortable arms I've let this feeling lull me to sleep without ever closing my eyes And I instructed it to compartmentalize this from my life And yet I still sit in this cage waiting for the key to be delivered to me But the door was never closed And the lock was only a figment available to me Maybe the key it never existed Maybe I'm all I'll ever see But I can't believe that this is it That I watched the life that I loved pass And out of comfort I couldn't say shit Maybe I felt unfit for a life so easy And maybe I just felt more comfortable in my unseen corner All alone like I always wanted All alone and no one's watching All alone I stand in awe of The Great Unknown Bewildered by its brilliance and infinite complexion I walk ahead, arms raised welcoming it's inner sense of direction I'm cut off from making any objection Stuck in my finite loop of always missing perfection I was raised in a house built on insurrection But I was born to inevitably give way to defection We've all felt this ringing through our ears Like someone standing beside us when only we're here This feeling in your chest never lies It wants us to accept that none of us will ever make it out alive I've crossed the line of return When looking back I can already see the lines blur I'm lost inside this space Forgotten the meaning of time I've seen the Devil and God's face And how it seemed to resemble mine I'm alone inside time Feeling each and every thought unwind Feeling as insignificant as a photo to the blind And it takes time but I will remind myself that I am aligned on these tracks before me I am nothing to no one The son of none I am everything but holy...