rebel of the night

I got snakes under my bedroom I got grass on my old floor It's got cracks and it's got holes, the spiders know I was scared of open windows I was scared of growing old So I never told nobody, so no one knows And the rain, it sounds like thunder Underneath that old tin roof All those pans and all those buckets made it waterproof I was scared of bringing the trash out Always scared of what could be in the dark So I never quit my singing, never turned my head And I'm thankful for forgiveness Even though my heart's a mess And I just never called you over when you're lonely 'Cause I'm a disgrace Black out, oh black out my head I'm glad I didn't run away instead But I can't call you lover, call you rebel Call you all the things I never had And I said love me the way, there's no night in my day If it's so, I might as well just stay And I just called you lover, called you rebel More than I had ever did before And I blacked out my head like a mood in the mess I don't wanna call out in the dark And I just watched you while you're fighting With the rebel of the night and I'm afraid I got snakes under my bedroom I got grass on my old floor It's got cracks and it's got holes, the spiders know I was scared of open windows I was scared of growing old So I never told nobody, so no one knows And the rain, it sounds like thunder Underneath that old tin roof All those pans and all those buckets made it waterproof I was scared of bringing the trash out Always scared of what could be in the dark So I never quit my singing, never turned my head And I'm thankful for forgiveness Even though my heart's a mess And I just never called you over when you're lonely 'Cause I'm a disgrace And I was calling it fair 'Cause I believed in the mess I just lost all my reason there Because I wasn't prepared Damn, I just called it a home 'Cause I needed it anyway Yeah, I was scared of the fear But I got used to it anyway